I'm going to die today

i just want to write something. i chose a title that (i thought) sounded interesting.

but the truth is, i'm not going to die today. because it's already 11:51 PM, and before i finish writing this, the day would be over. but if i could die today and use the computer tomorrow to tell you how it was to die, then yes, i would die today.

what happened: i was reading some of my old posts. and i realized these:

1. i don't really know english
2. most of my posts are unintelligible
3. i post blogs more often before
   
4. things are really different now than before
5. i had more good vibrations before than today
   
6. i drank too much beer in college
   

what i want to happen:

1. know english
2. post intelligible pieces
3. post more blog entries
   
4. be happy even if things are better or worse today than before
5. be positive, be happy (i have already deleted most of my negative/angsty posts)
6. drink the same amount of beer that i drank in college
7. don't die today
   

wish me luck :)